A friend originally recommended I try a "male-body massage." When I looked into it I found this circle was actually pretty big, and in the end I chose the well-regarded "Ri Zheng SPA" and specifically requested Ben, who looked sunny and had a toned body. I was super nervous on the day of the appointment—partly curious, partly worried it would be awkward.

As soon as I walked in, the place was clean and minimalist, with a low-key, relaxed atmosphere. Ben came out to greet me, and just as the rumors said he was handsome, with the presence of a fitness trainer and a very friendly smile. He first asked me about my needs, such as any areas that tend to be tight or my pressure preferences; he was respectful and professional throughout.

For the massage I undressed completely, covering myself only with a towel. At first I was quite shy, but Ben's technique was delicate—he worked slowly from my back down to my thighs, and I found myself relaxing without noticing. The oil he used smelled pleasant, and paired with the right amount of pressure, I felt for the first time how a "male-body massage" differs from a regular massage—the intertwining of physical and emotional sensations brought an indescribable sense of comfort.

The whole session lasted about 90 minutes, and I felt like I had rebooted: my body felt light and my mood was great. Ben didn't do anything unnecessary, but the atmosphere carried just the right hint of intimacy, which lingered in my mind. For me this experience was both a physical release and the beginning of a kind of self-exploration.