(I'm venting because I miss him so much)
我沒有想過…
This platform made me feel like I was falling in love with a therapist,
I haven't come out and I don't even have time to date,
After entering the workforce, because of my work environment
my colleagues are mostly uncles and aunts, even grandfathers and grandmothers,
so this orientation means I can't be my true self at work,
I can only talk about work,
unlike when I was a student and my coworkers were around my age, accepted everything and we could hang out and have fun together.
Gradually I felt the daily pressure was huge,
I had no energy to meet new men,
until one day I suddenly saw this platform,
and discovered that massage seemed like a good option,
there were actually hundreds of therapists to choose from!
I was really shocked… but I didn't want to pick randomly,
so I spent several months choosing,
during that process I realized that while you hesitate, that therapist might already have quit!
So I knew… I couldn't delay.

I found what I thought was a dream guy at an SPA,
but because many photos are deceiving and look great online,
the person can be really disappointing in real life, so I kept hesitating,
I thought “nothing to lose,” it's only one or two hours anyway,
it's no big deal, so I contacted the SPA's social media manager,
by now many people are probably wondering who he actually is…
(I'm not saying for now because I really like him)
If… this post gets a good response, I'll see if it can at least reach hundreds or thousands… I feel reluctant
because I know his family situation isn't good,
if more people choose him,
it could quickly change his living conditions…
but he might have more people who like him…
then it would be even less likely for me to appear in his life…
He…made me feel for the first time that I'm worthy of being loved,
I learned from chatting that he already has someone else, but his service made me suspect that I might also be his other half,
I'm already crying as I type this… because I know it's impossible for us
yet I'm completely infatuated with him.

What is a gentle touch, asking about the pressure — every sentence makes you sink into the process unable to pull away, his eyes looking at you! That innocent look 🥺, I asked him why he's so cute, he said he can't help it, it's natural. I told him he's working so hard, if those situations hadn't happened, he wouldn't have to do this.

Sorry I don't have the ability… to take care of everything for you, but from this moment on I promise myself I'll get rich and buy all of your time.